RAVISH

Sometimes I can smell you on my hands, on my breath.
And I become confused, disorientated - it has been hours since I kissed you - hours since I tasted your mouth upon mine
Hours since you laid your hands upon me - face turned toward me.
Opening your heart, letting down the walls - vunerable and ravished

Maybe you left your trace on my skin - imprinted upon me, yourself so that even when I wasn't near you, I would remember you.

The ghost of your touch.

I don't know how to forget you, and trust me, I've tried.

FOR-GIVEN

These wrists turn,

Your eyes are glazed, laced with disapointment.

Bones are easily broken, time can atest to this.

Hearts heal - I can atest to this.

Forgive me, my love.

Forgive me, this broken promise.

CUNT

Fuck you for not being there for me when I need you the most.
Fuck you for not caring that this is the biggest thing I've had to face + I'm facing it alone.
Fuck you for wanting to live with me when you needed an out then not even respecting me enough to tell me that you didn't need it anymore. You fucking cunt.
Fuck you for being an alcoholic.
Fuck you for being a drug addict + all round failure.
Fuck you for being nothing worth looking up to.
Fuck you for hurting me.
Fuck you for not trying hard enough to make this right between us.
Fuck you for dumping on me when YOU want.
Fuck you for being a two faced, lying bitch.
Fuck you for touching me.
Fuck you for creating so much drama that EVERYONE is sick of you but are too afraid to tell you.
Fuck you for EVER coming into my life.
Fuck you for spelling my name wrong.
Fuck you for making me doubt myself.
Fuck you for your guilt.
Fuck you for your manipulation.
Fuck you for being male.
Fuck you for the five years I've wasted loving you. I fucking hate you + wish you were dead.
Fuck you for lying/cheating/stealing.

FUCK YOU FOR BEING EXACTLY WHO YOU ARE.

Fuck you.

CHI CHI

Insignifigant, sufficient.
Disasterous + unwarranted.
Cold flush a poisonous fever flows, ebbs+ fades away.

What is this fear?
Anothers mouth - anothers eyes.

You said I look so pretty when I cry.

VIABLE AIR

There was a moment - where you made my heart trip.
Your weight upon me, pressing me down, downdowndown
your heart beating - into my chest - out of synch with mine
a kiss upon the head, three spoken words - my name the punctuation.


the bridge is flooded and I cannot return home.


This city is blanketed by the sky, heat oppressive
we stand amongst three nations of people

I am breatheless, the heat robbing my lungs of viable air,
whispering into your ear, my final words - iloveyouiloveyouiloveyou

My lips on the pulse in your neck
breathing you into my lungs
you surround me, around me....

iloveyouiloveyouiloveyou