Are you waving or drowning?

I don't know what to do about you.


It's sink or swim........................

GLASS

It has come to my attention that I err on the dark side of life.
Why do you always see me as "on" when all I want to do is hide.

It hurts that we can't get past this - but really, neither of us are above or beyond it.

I loved you, I hate you.

for fear of failing

Do you have the time - is there enough for me to follow?
Could I possibly ever fall in love with you?
Am I holding back or is it just-not-there?
Could I ever go through with it?
Will you resent what you love - eventually?
Will you ruin me - like maybe I want you to?
Can you break this open and take the pain from my chest?
Would my confession send you to your death?
Can you save me from drowning within myself?


Will there ever be silence inside of me?
Would you ever forgive me for this?
Do you even have a choice?


Blood.

....she....speaks....

Finally....she speaks.




And my heart is still aching.



All these months gone, in one mere encounter.



Watch the minutes of my life  - light, bright, sight away.



Paralysed by a fear of the new, the unknown, struggling to stay afloat.



Deeper and deeper I regress - into myself.

Into my hurt.

Into my head.



This is going to kill me. [andImgoingtoletit]



Let's see blood and be done with this.
 

Anton.

It's Anton's birthday tomorrow.

RIP babeh.

xx

CTRL+C CTRL+V

I can't...

Don't, please baby, don't.

I can never be happy for you while you're with him.

You wouldn't be happy for me anyway. Without you.

Neither are you.

No, you're right. I'm not at all. I'm fucking appalled, mortified, more so disgusted.

Does he make you happy?

Yes, very happy.

Did I?

Some times. Not at the end. Neither of us did.

I love you so much, Charley Girl.

+ I, you.

You are a part of me.

So is he.

           is offline.

..........................................

[The Lord bless you and keep you


The Lord lift His countenance upon you

And give you peace and give you peace

The Lord make His face to shine upon you

And be gracious unto you be gracious

The Lord be gracious gracious unto you

Amen]

WHITE WASH

Your heart races
palms liquify - strain to look into my hooded eyes

[it's so dark in here]

blink away the salt+ crash through these solid walls - pull me closer to your chest

[.d.e.s.i.r.e.]

I'm looking away - staring at the white walls + wishing myself blind

I"m blinking away tears and 6 years of resentment.

I'm holding my breath - just let me sink into you + forget the waves crashing inside of my head

There's just not enough silence to make me still.

[how can I swallow this when I can't even breathe? I'm lost in you, so lost in you.]


[how can I swallow this when I can't even breathe? I'm lost in you, so lost in you.]